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High & Tight

Sculpt

I’m not one to toot my own horn, so for me to say I’m really good at something is quite the feat. My talents include: making people smile and/or laugh, making lovely birthday cards, kissing, livening up almost any situation, cuddling, not caring what strangers think and, what I haven’t used in some time, being a girlfriend.

I am really great at being a girlfriend. My positive characteristics include:
• playing video games and enjoying it
• I give a mean back rub
• cuddling is my specialty
• I can be equally as happy being the life of the party or smiling on your arm
• I love having fun *nudge nudge wink wink* a lot
• I get along with anyone - friends and family
• I can’t cook but I always try my darnedest
• you never know what I’ll do next, life is always interesting

The list goes on but I’m sleepy.

I’ll be honest and say that in the last few months I haven’t been so great to myself. I haven’t showed myself the respect that I truly deserve, but now that I see myself in a new light, I am having troubles proving it to members of the male persuasion.

I used to have a line of guys that wanted to call me their girlfriend. Now I have a handful of males sexting me at one in the morning and asking to hang out after drunken nights with friends. I went from dream girl to one night of fun. But how do I go back to being the girl, guys write poems about or can’t help smile when they think about me and not the booty a guy wants to smack or the mouth a guy wants in his skin?

You live. You learn. You pray someone will finally take you seriously.

Life is a highway and I keep switching lanes at a rapid pace. I am ready to merge right on over to a new highway. I need a fresh start. I need a clean slate. I need to reestablish myself and let go of my hurt and parts of my past.

I know the past makes you who you are but I also am a firm believer that who you want to be in the future can also impact who you are today.

I can’t wait to graduate and that will help me start over but I need to just think of starting fresh as a gradual merge into the me I want to be.

I’m fairly sure the feelings are gone but what I don’t understand is how I haven’t found feelings for another. Maybe I’m getting picky, which isn’t a bad thing.

I’m fine with being friends.

Today was the first time I heard his voice in little under a month. And if tomorrow actually works out it will be the first time I will see him in over a month.

Weird.